It’s alright to feel this way in all honesty. To not know which way is up and to feel like the future is doing nothing but leaving you emotionally over-encumbered and that shit ain’t even here yet. You wake up feeling all of this nonexistent pressure or if you’re in the unfortunate circumstance of having that pressure being very much real then you have to cope with that and maneuver through the world normally. That shit fucking sucks but you can find solace in the fact that nobody really gives a fuck about you so don’t worry because you can live in peace.
You can feel that pressure but you have to either realize it’s fictional or work through the pressure people thrust upon you and work regardless of it because they don’t matter. Just wake up and do something you enjoy. You can take solace in the fact that a lot of shit can change in a year and that no one has it all figured out. Most of the time a lot niggas just end up fumbling into shit and it works out. So the moral of the story is that it’s okay to feel lost but eventually you have to pick a direction and get to fucking walking. You don’t want to be that guy/girl that watches everyone around you elevate while you slowly get left behind. Stop bitching. Get to work.